Conflicted.. am I gay? Am I BI?

I guess we can start playing “catch up” with this truth.. I’ve never been so conflicted and confused about my sexuality. Self reflection can stir up some pretty stanky shit. Sorry for the language but quite frankly I don’t find a better way to speak it. Ugh, WHO AM I? and next important question, WHO […]

Welcome Back

It’s been quite some time since we’ve met in this place I call.. my public journal. Much of much has occurred in our journey of life and I think it’s time to begin to explore and expose, or “share”.. if truth is told, it’s a longing and necessity that has been ignited within. This is […]

D.I.D system pride day

For three years I had been going to therapy. Too reluctant on taking the step. Understanding and fighting the inner “installments” of a religious and cultural belief and stigma. As a Christian, who believes in God and the power of what He did for me on the cross.. the moment I accepted Him into my […]

Intimacy

What a soar and uncomfortable subject to speak of. Many think it and think about all the highlighting subjects that surround it… however, very few discuss it. It’s been on my mind a lot lately. With social media, just media in general, conversations and even just with some stirred up memories, thoughts/emotions that have been […]

ABORTION.. to do? or not to do?

DISCLAIMER: All the spoken from this point on, is unfiltered stating of MY experience, opinion, ‘feeling’ and in some sense, MY conviction. You are welcomed to disagree, comment, agree.. but, you’ve been warned. I’ve had this subject in the front of my mind for days now. One of the subjects that finds this deep inner […]

Hidden Enemy.. Bully = Suicide?

“YOU ARE USELESS.” “NO ONE GIVES A DAMN ABOUT YOU!” “YOU ARE A WASTE OF SPACE AND LIFE!” “YOU’RE DISGUSTING!” “YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTE FAILURE!” “YOU ARE AN IMPOSTER, A FRAUD!” ” YOU ARE SIMPLY SOMETHING THEY FEEL THEY MUST TOLERATE!” “LOOK AT YOURSELF, WHO’D WANT YOU!” “YOU’LL NEVER BE ANYTHING!” “YOU’RE DAMAGED GOODS!” “THEY […]

Uncensored

DISCLAIMER: This one goes to my hardcore legalistic, hard core religious. Please see this as a warning that.. you most likely will cringe at ALOT of the following written. However, if you are legalistic, hard core religious and you don’t… congratulations and welcome.. to the TRUE heart of God! Bare with me here.. one of […]

Insecurity.. what?

“Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. Its okay not be okay. Tears don’t mean you’re losing…every body’s bruising..” -Jesse J, ‘Who You Are’ DISCLAIMER: My brain is everywhere… AND, all the spoken from this point on, is unfiltered stating of MY experience, opinion, ‘feeling’ and in some sense, MY conviction. You are welcomed to disagree, […]

Strengthening Disease: Secrecy

DISCLAIMER: it’s a long one… AND, all the spoken from this point on, is unfiltered stating of MY experience, opinion, ‘feeling’ and in some sense, MY conviction. You are welcomed to disagree, comment, agree.. but, you’ve been warned. Not too long ago there was a post I came across… it had this exact picture and […]

Introduction to Madness…ME

Welcome.. I believe that seems to be the proper ‘receiving’ to what I can only hope is an enlightening, truth baring, insightful, possibly crazed, informative, perspective and sneak into the complexity of this human writing. Starting with introducing you to who I am. I am a nonconventional, nontraditional, absolutely paradoxical and nondenominational Christian. I am […]